To John, From Mark

     Hey John, thanks for reaching back out. I'm sorry that happened you man with that girl, that really sucks. I see what you're saying about letting go of this idea that I should be with Sarah. But something I just can't get out of my head is...what if I am supposed to be with Sarah? I mean, life can play odd tricks of the light sometimes, weaving in and out unexpectedly. I know that my mom and dad had known each and dated, then split apart, then found each other again later in life and married. in that case, they were meant to be together. I know, I know...it sounds absurd to believe that I could still be with Sarah. She's got a whole life beyond me now...she's got a kid on the way, a husband...I wouldn't want to ruin that for her. I just...I've got this feeling that I can't let go. It's not a knowing of the belief that I should be with her, but a knowing of the fact that I feel I should be with her. I know that this is what I believe. But whether or not I know this is what is to happen, or what is supposed to happen, I'm not sure.

    Is there evidence in the sense that it's not supposed to happen? Think for a second. Although she is married, there is not a case yet where I cannot be her lover again. I know that sounds very crass of me, even belligerent,  but what I'm saying is there is a scenario where I could still end up with her. I know that there is a chance, a possible chance, that she'll come back with me. We had such a connection growing up, and in college we allowed ourselves to be free when we were with each other. There is no one else on this Earth who I've felt the same way with. 

    I know all these thoughts seem sudden and erratic, but this is how I feel. I cannot wake up anymore without thinking about Sarah and what life might have been like with her. No...not what it might have been like. I think about what life will be like. I've decided to send her another letter, and this time I'm going to express these feelings. The worst that could happen is I don't receive another letter from her, but at least I would've shared my feelings. Also, I know Sarah, and she'll respond back with something.

    Best,

    Mark